It has been so very long since I posted. It’s because I have not been doing anything to lose weight, and since this blog is dedicated to that, I have not posted. However, I still want to lose weight. I do. I want to. So what in the world is stopping me? I have an addiction. It’s food. It’s my answer to everything. Hungry? Food. Bored? Food. Depressed? Food. Feelings hurt? Food. Low self image? Food. No energy? Food. Long day? Food. Feeling happy? Food. Watching a movie at home? Food.
I am not so bad, mind you, but there are really some food that I am addicted to. Sugar. In all it’s forms. Candy bars are so awesome. I don’t know if I will ever not crave a candy bar. Same with fast food. It seems like I am often craving fast food.
When I go to exercise it literally feels like I am chained inside my house. It’s like I can’t leave. I don’t know what to do to break free. If any one out there is reading this, what can I do to break free?
I am seriously considering Weight Watchers and joining a fitness center. I am afraid of failure though. Then wasted money.
I need to remeber that I am a good person though. I have accomplished some great things in my life. I just finished doing a play in which, despite my obesity, I was a success at. I made it into the BYU music department and I am going to do it again. Heavenly Father is helping me. He wants me to be happy. I can do this.
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